CLARKE: THAT F*CKING GUY! - AMY WINEHOUSE (Before we start, i did NOT know...

24th July 2011

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AMY WINEHOUSE

(Before we start, i did NOT know Amy, these are my thoughts)

All I see when I look at the above picture of Amy Winehouse is a girl with hope. A beautiful girl, with hope, love, and passion for her music.

Someone so gifted that she’ll still be spoken about in 100 years time, although I hope she’s remembered for this pic and her music not the way the press hounded her and made her look.

I’ve seen and heard a lot of cunts talking about how she did drugs and got what was coming. NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO… She did NOT get what was coming. Addiction is a dangerous thing that can’t be controlled it is an illness. Now don’t get me wrong I don’t condone or do any drugs, never have, it’s just not me, but I don’t judge others on what they do, when I’m not in their shoes.

“It’s easy to talk about what you think is happening on top of the mountain when you haven’t even started climbing it yet”.

What I can say is this. Being in the public eye and I probably get 00.01% (if that) of the attention she got, it can be a very stressful.

It doesn’t matter what day I’m having. I have to smile at people that approach me, I have to listen to people tell me they want my email to send me a script cos they know a guy that knows my friend personally and because of that they thought I’d read it. I have to take the 10 CD’s I’m handed a day of some guys mixtape, and when only 1 can get on a film that’s 9 other people that suddenly are hating. I have to take abuse online and am not supposed to speak back. I have to stop and sign autographs when I’m eating with my family, or in hospital with my son, because if I don’t I’m the dickhead, and sometimes it can get on top.

So you find other ways to stay in your world where you can just be you, you find those places and those people and those things you enjoy just to escape the white noise… and that time becomes everything to you. Amy needed space and time to be on her own to just be Amy… not Amy Winehouse, but was never left alone.

And don’t gimme that shit about we choose this life. You think I care about been known. I don’t. I care about my work. You think Amy just wanted to be famous? No, I doubt she did. She wanted to fucking sing songs, and damn it, she did. Better than most people ever will.

So fuck anyone that say’s she deserved it or should have been more responsible. The pressure of her life must have been immense, I’ve heard a lot of people talking about how if they had this or that and had her life they would be so happy and embrace it, and do the right thing.

But the truth is you have no idea how you’ll handle it. Because when you are on camera, when you are part of public awareness, at the lowest level like me or a A-list level like her it’s something you just can’t understand or know how you will deal with until you experience it.

So all you twisted fucks that said anything negative, said anything about her without the slightest speck of understanding of what it’s like. I don’t wish anything bad on you… In fact.

I wish you all the success in the world…